Spark

I am not a big fan of Chetan Bhagat. Infact, I still rue the 6-7 hours that I wasted reading 3 of his stupid filmscripts. I have wasted time in far more constructive ways than this. But this is not about his novels, but about that speech of his made during the orientation program at Symbiosis last year. Here it is, posted in a blog.

It was interesting because he talks about this spark in every one's life. I have been thinking about it since the last 5-6 months or so, until I came across his speech few weeks back and got the exact word - spark, that I was looking for. I understood that, I was behaving miserably, not with people around me, but with myself. I was disinterested in many of the things that would generally attract my attention. I knew very well, there was something wrong going on, something very wrong, I am actually not a bitter and miserable person.I am curious, anxious, lazy, stupid and insane at same time. That is what I have always been. But those days, I was becoming passive. Passive to - I do not know what.

Fortunately, I read about this spark within us and it coincided with something that was really important to me. Something that I can term as - Potentially happy moment. And since then, I have been making a conscious effort to bring that spark back. It seems to be somewhat fine now. But with all my experience, I know that its not something that we can create or ignite consciously, you just know when that spark is rekindled. Thats it. However hard you try, you wont figure out when that spark is lost ( as I experienced) and again, it is impossible to figure out when it comes back into your life, as I finding out now. Whats within your grasp is to keep the spark alive. Probably, I was lucky that the spark was rekindled very soon.